False Alarm

Following our crazy weekend I felt generally pretty cruddy at the beginning of the week.  On Tuesday I slept awhile after BJ came home from work and had little motivation to do much with Silas.  I actually ended up sleeping on the couch for well over an hour while he played on and around me.  It made me feel horrible, but I didn't have the energy to do anything about it.  He went to daycare on Wednesday and Thursday which I think was good for him so he could have a break from me and interact with other kiddos. 

On Wednesday night I did more prepping for T2.  I was feeling anxious, and I've had trouble sleeping.  Most likely as a result of being uncomfortable and my strange sleep habits lately, but I've also had racing thoughts of all the things we need to get done before arrival.  So, I finished packing T2's bag, packed my own bag, washed a tote of receiving blankets, and washed bottles while BJ raised the crib and washed/installed the carseat base.  This significantly reduced the to-do list. 

Thursday morning I had another weekly appointment.  In some ways they really drive me bonkers because you go and have to sit FOREVER!  We were in a room waiting to see someone for over an hour which did not fare well for my tiny bladder.  To my shock we saw a nurse practitioner rather than a doctor.  This just seemed strange to me at 37 weeks.  She came in and expressed some concern with my blood pressure which was 138/82.  Not a concern in the general blood pressure world, but high compared to my previous blood pressures.  She also used the doppler to listen to T2's heart beat and indicated that she didn't think the baby was head down.  Ugh.  So...as she went to get an ultrasound machine, she also consulted with Dr. Parks who told us to head on over to the pregnancy assessment center.  Long story short, if monitoring and bloodwork showed preeclampsia then I was being induced since I was full-term.  I was more emotional that I expected (although not atypical) because I was so sad that I hadn't spent more time telling Silas good-bye.  I'm having a really hard time thinking of leaving him for the few days I'm in the hospital.  I'm trying to look at this as a positive though that perhaps I'll be able to eventually get back to my old self who wants to go on walks, run, and play on the floor which I'm sure he is ready for. 

Needless to say, we spent three hours at Barnes and were released.  I have to monitor my blood pressure twice per day and take it to my appointment next week.  We were supposed to go see Avengers for BJ's birthday after the doctor's appointment which didn't work out since it took SO long!  So, we headed to the mall and purchased T2's heart bear.  It was pretty comical watching BJ pump that little stuffed bear full of cotton.  :) 

Once we got back to Troy, BJ went to Redbox and rented the Muppets and the Vow.  Silas was so excited to watch it when he came home from daycare.  It was our first family movie night where he actually sat on the couch with us.  I was happy to have this time after being so sad at the hospital.  More prepping continued after he went to bed.  We folded laundry and deleted pics from the camera and video camera, and BJ packed his stuff for the hospital. 

Today we did massive cleaning and organizing in the ktichen to find room for all those bottles again.  I'm still not convinced this is true nesting or forced based on my fear of being induced yesterday!  There is still some organizing to do in the nursery and I want to get all the bills paid just in case.  I've got lots of anxiety about how all of this happens at home.  As hard as being induced was with Silas at least I knew what to expect and had medical staff around me.  I'm sure my fears are based on two friends who just recently didn't make it to the hospital at the right time (one deliverying her baby at home), and the fact that BJ is an hour away at night time.  I also feel unsure of what to do with Silas if it is during the night and family is so far away.  I'm sure it will all work out as it is intended.  I just want to ensure that T2 is delivered safely and we're all taken care of. 

It's officially June now so T2 won't share the same birthday month as Silas, BJ, and Dunkel.  :)  We sure are ready to meet this little person, and very curious to know if it's a boy or girl!  Hopefully soon!