15 Appears to be My Number...the Question is, "Will it be LUCKY?"

Well...no success this last month. I took another round of Clomid and was happy to see that smiling face again yesterday. It's nice to be "regular."

This morning I recalled a story that the father of one of BJ's friends told him. He swears that by conceiving on the 15th day of a woman's cycle you will definitely have boys. He reported that he wanted boys and by following this logic, he had two boys himself. Personally, I've sort of always seen myself having three boys. I'm not sure why and really don't have a logical answer except I really don't think I'd be good at doing hair. I'm just not that girly. However, I really never expected this process to take this long and I'd just be happy with a baby at this point. It's sort of funny because BJ leans toward wanting a girl. Go figure.

We have some pressure from BJ's dad in particular to have a boy. BJ's two older brother's both have two daughters each, and BJ is their last chance at carrying on the family name. BJ's mom has shared a Chinese Conception Calendar with us. Apparently you can determine the sex of your child based on the age of the mother and the month of the year. If we were to get pregnant this month, it says boys. It's funny to learn about all of the methods for determining the sex of the baby (i.e., the pencil test). My fear is that once we're pregnant, these will be our only method for having some idea. When my friend Amanda got pregnant, she and her husband decided they'd rather not know the sex in advance. BJ shared that he "did not blame them." I was shocked. He said he felt it would be a nice surprise. Let's face it, I'm a planner. It may be a struggle.

Speaking of planning, for my own selfish reasons, it'd be REALLY nice to get pregnant this month. I'd be due in June and have the entire summer to spend with the baby without dipping into my sick days. I guess sometimes things don't just work out because of convenience though. Work has been very stressful lately, and I worry how that impacts me. I'm trying to take one day at a time and not let things get me too upset. That's sort of a challenge for me. I guess we all have things we need to work on though.

*sigh*

I'm feeling very anxious today...tomorrow is the 28th day of this cycle and I'm becoming antsy about taking a pregnancy test. Of course, I've gotten out the package and read the instructions even though I've used them before. The reason I decided I wanted to reread and educate myself is because I wanted to know how soon I could test. Apparently, with this brand, I could test up to four days before my missed period. Thus, I could technically test today and the test would be 95% accurate. My biggest concern is that I'm not always "regular" and even though I've followed a more typical pattern lately, I'd hate to take the test and it be a false negative because I wasn't patient. That would be just too crushing, so I'm mustering up all my strength to just wait it out. It's really exciting though to think that I might actually be pregnant. I know if I'm not I'll be a little crushed, but it just means we try again this next month.

I can't help but start thinking about how I woud break the news to BJ, or my friends and family. I've got a few ideas up my sleeve...of course, I guess that news will follow later. Right now I'm just hoping with all my might that the next test shows a positive and I can take another pee stick picture. Hehe!