The waiting game...

I ovulated!!! Woo hoo! Part of me is telling myself that this is far too much information for the rest of the world, but it's just so darn exciting! With all my might I'm attempting to not be a pessimist, but I think it's natural to have a bit of negativity that things might just not work out. It helps to keep reality from being too much to handle. That being said, it really happened! I took Clomid and began tracking my ovulation on day 10 of my cycle. When day 14 passed, I began to get a bit more anxious as those "text book" girls would have ovulated at that point. We've added a new addition to our family, our puppy Dunkel, and he's been keeping us pretty busy. On the morning of August 2oth (day 15), BJ headed outside with Guinness and Dunkel for their morning potty routine and I headed to the bathroom crossing my fingers that I'd see the "smiley face" indicating I had ovulated. I carried the test to the kitchen with me and began taking care of the dogs with BJ. After a few minutes, I realized I hadn't checked the test yet. To my surprise, a smiley face stared back at me. It really makes you want to smile too! In fact, I was so excited that I took a picture. BJ just giggled at me. I think he said, "are you serious?" I can't even imagine the emotion I'll feel when it's an actual positive on a pregnancy test, but now begins the waiting game...

Am I emotional?

I officially started taking Clomid on July 8th. The doctor's instructions had been for me to take one pill, twice daily. I realized I didn't really know what that meant. So I woke up and took one pill, and then called the doctor to ask when I should take the second. The office called back to tell me I could have taken both together. Why wouldn't the instructions have been two pills, once daily. Arg! I was frustrated. It didn't help that we had family arrive in town and my mind wandered from the world of infertility, thus I almost forgot to take the second. The entire thing was making me grouchy. Anyway, for five days I took the ten pills I was prescribed each day at 8:30 am and 9:17 pm. The nurse said I should take them at the same time each day.

Today is Day 10 of my cycle and is the day that I'm to begin my daily ovulation tests. We traveled home from Boise today and I didn't feel I was able to perform the test in airport bathrooms, so I wasn't able to take it until after 2 pm. The result for the first day was negative.

Needless to say, I'm feeling emotional. I found out that yet another friend is pregnant and they hadn't really tried to get pregnant. Good for them I suppose, it gets harder and harder to feel happy for the future parents of the world.

I'm reading a book a friend suggested and really enjoying it, "Bringing Home Daisy." I really feel a connection with the author, as she tells her story of infertility. I even find myself crying as I read about her struggles. Of course, it's hard to tell if this is just regular ol' emotional Kelly or perhaps one of the possible side effects of Clomid.

The warnings also indicate that dizziness and hot flashes are possible. I don't know that I really feel any different...

As my dad recently shared, I guess I'm just crossing my fingers, toes, and eyes right now that we are pregnant soon!