Well...no success this last month. I took another round of Clomid and was happy to see that smiling face again yesterday. It's nice to be "regular."
This morning I recalled a story that the father of one of BJ's friends told him. He swears that by conceiving on the 15th day of a woman's cycle you will definitely have boys. He reported that he wanted boys and by following this logic, he had two boys himself. Personally, I've sort of always seen myself having three boys. I'm not sure why and really don't have a logical answer except I really don't think I'd be good at doing hair. I'm just not that girly. However, I really never expected this process to take this long and I'd just be happy with a baby at this point. It's sort of funny because BJ leans toward wanting a girl. Go figure.
We have some pressure from BJ's dad in particular to have a boy. BJ's two older brother's both have two daughters each, and BJ is their last chance at carrying on the family name. BJ's mom has shared a Chinese Conception Calendar with us. Apparently you can determine the sex of your child based on the age of the mother and the month of the year. If we were to get pregnant this month, it says boys. It's funny to learn about all of the methods for determining the sex of the baby (i.e., the pencil test). My fear is that once we're pregnant, these will be our only method for having some idea. When my friend Amanda got pregnant, she and her husband decided they'd rather not know the sex in advance. BJ shared that he "did not blame them." I was shocked. He said he felt it would be a nice surprise. Let's face it, I'm a planner. It may be a struggle.
Speaking of planning, for my own selfish reasons, it'd be REALLY nice to get pregnant this month. I'd be due in June and have the entire summer to spend with the baby without dipping into my sick days. I guess sometimes things don't just work out because of convenience though. Work has been very stressful lately, and I worry how that impacts me. I'm trying to take one day at a time and not let things get me too upset. That's sort of a challenge for me. I guess we all have things we need to work on though.
2 comments:
kelly - i just discovered your blog! so SO sorry to read about your struggles. a dear friend of mine has PCOS and is in the beginning stages of her 2nd IVF cycle. i told her 2nd time was the charm for me! i'm wishing you the best with the clomid - hang in there, because i know the emotions and side effects that come with it SUCK! i'm here for ya if you need me. HUGS!
Get back on that horse! And that horse is BJ!!!!
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